Day -4, but Technically Day -3

Hi Everyone,

it’s 3 Am on Good Friday, so technically, I am officially day -3.  But I a, posting a recap of Day -4 for everyone. I didn’t feel like typing for everyone and this is the sickest and palest I have looked, so hold on to your seats.  Lol

Xoxo

colleen

PS – for all you  female HSCTers out there. Invest in these.  What a godsend.  All it takes is two quick cuts inside the shirt when your picc is done (and you know what arm) and you are good to go. Wear them as bras, under sleep sweater, or as tanks.  What a help.  I had a 3 min ekg today and 2 of the 3 were is taking about the top. Lol

http://www.target.com/p/women-s-nursing-cotton-cami-gilligan-o-malley/-/A-13793418

Day -4 ….  A Face of HSCT

Hi Everyone, 

 I lay awake this am with a heating pad strapped to my bad eye in the hopes that it will take the pain away that drugs cannot right now.  You all know my story, but I want to share the story of a member of the HSCT Family Rachelle.  Like many of us, she is a wife, associate, mom, sister and friend. She was all this and more when she was handed the diagnosis of CIPD.  Like MS, CIPD is an auto immune disease. It is progressive and there’s no known cure. But also like MS, HSCT offers a hope, one of the greatest gifts God could give.  The hope of a long term remission with no drugs and maybe even a cure.  Please take a moment to watch the video her talented brother made:

 Rachelle and I are on very similar paths.  I took the same medication off and on for a year or more.  If you have any means to donate, I ask you to please consider.  This treatment has PROVEN HSCT saves lives and more importantly quality of lives. That is a dream we all deserve to have come true. 

ttps://m.helphopelive.org/campaign/5895 

If you don’t have the means, I ask you to spread the HSCT word.  Thanks for allowing me to steal some time! This brave video Rachelle and her brother made is brining awareness to CIPD.  

 xoxo 

 colleen  

PS – my day has been difficult.  They moved my picc line again because of heart palpitations. The steroids (we hope) are causing my heart rate to go up and I’ve been asked to stay in bed and rest.  I started chemo about 30 minutes ago.  The dreaded steroids begin after the chemo ends and before the rabbit begins.  If I get the energy later,  I’ll post some more.

Thanks 

Day -5… I’m heeeerrrreeeee

Hi everyone!

Well I’m all checked into Prentice.  I really can’t say enough that this hospital has the best staff ever.  Everyone is so so nice!    Amyway, so we got to the room about 8:00AM and got to work unpacking and organizing my room.  Here are some pictures.  I’ll take more when I’m up and about.

  

The biggest task was hanging all my pictures. My mother did the work This was a big inspiration from my bestie Jen and her hospital stay.  Everyone keeps coming by to look. Lol

   

 

It’s not everyone I love, but a bulk of you that I was able to get printed at Walgreens last week.  If you are not on the wall and want your picture hung, well you will just have to send me one.  I can’t leave the floor. Lol. 

So, I told everyone last night about the heart fluttering.  Well, I was spot on and today they pulled the picc out a little more then a centimeter.  It’s so much better.  I also have a handy dandy heart monitor to carry around the next few days.   After the picc line was fixed I started my chemo.  Omg.. The wasabi nose is insane!  I was face timing my bestie Jen and she could even see my nose turn red.  It was like I snorted wasabi… And I know from experience that’s not fun. Lol jk.  

Ladies and Gentlemen…. PeeWee is back in the alamo and I was such a big girl this time.  I didn’t even cry.  My mother was such a support for me.  She stayed in the chair playing trivia crack. ❤️

It has been a whirl wind today with all the picc line moving and swabbing (Einstein and John Lennon for those HSCTers out there).  I promise to do a video or more photos of the room.  So far…. I don’t regret anything I packed and BEST money I ever spent was the $50 for the extra long temperpedic mattress pad.  I have one for the pull out too.  Whomever is here when I leave and wants them (I swear they are clean and hopefully stay that way) can have them.  They are not returning to Texas.  GOD WILLING, that will be around the 18th of this month.

So, I have to interrupt his very exciting medical blog to tell you about my AMAZING AND WONDERFUL AND AWESOME FRIEND DIANE!   I love her so much.  Anyway,  Diane knew a guy, who knew a lady with connections and guess who is going to Steve Harvey next week?   Not me!

 

Diane, this is the best gift ever.  I can never thank you enough.  Tell Jim to be extra nice to you for me!  ❤️❤️❤️

While I’m shouting out… Emily, thank you for showing me the hole in face app.  You should have stock in the app because I got like 50 people obsessed.  

Anyway,  back to medicine.  I have massive steroid mouth (tastes like I drank a bottle of nail polish… I also know from experience. Lol jk). So I am signing off for now.  Thanks for all the love and support.  If I can ask another favor, my uncle/Godfather is in need of some healing prayers.  Please pray for him.

Xoxo

Colleen

Ps- I am currently getting the rATG. That’s rabbit antibody for those of you who aren’t in the loop.  I wonder if this reverses 26 years of vegetarianism?  I think since the IVIG is human, that probably already did that!

Day -6 Picc Line Day

Hi Everyone!!

Well picc line is over and done.  We met Stemmie Twin and his awesome mom in the waiting room.  So great to see them again.  Even my dad was happy!

As you may tell,  I was a bit nervous going into the procedure.

Thank God my support helped me stay calm

So,  I made you a video on how it went.  Check it out:

Well,  we are off to have an early dinner at my favorite Italian Resraurant here Volare (that I keep calling Voltare – I am my mother’s daughter).

i hope to post a couple of times tomorrow.  I brought way too much stuff and I want everyone to learn from the mistake I already know I made.  Lol

xoxo

Colleen

An Ambien Attempt at an Overview… I wonder if I’ll remember writing this in the AM

Hi everyone, 

Rosie and Fran are home.  As always, it’s horrible seeing them leave. There is no better time then the present to talk about the next few weeks.

*****Please note that I am taking some of this from my knowledge, some from Jen’s experience, some from the patient manuel on Dr Burts website, and some from the great friends (sisters and brothers of HSCT) who have been there for me every step of the way.

Tomorrow, I have my Picc line inserted onto my arm. This is like an IV with 3 or more tubes coming out of it.  It will allow the doctors and nurses to administer chemo, drugs and take blood.  This is basically how it works. 

  

Then, Wenesday AM, I will be admitted for about 3 weeks to have my transplant.  So, what happens: 

Starting tomorrow, it’s all about the transplant.  We count days based on that.  So Tuesday, March 31st will be my Day -6. First I am going to give you the Colleen version, then the official version

Tues = Day -6: Picc line inserted via outpatient.

Wen = Day -5:  My 6 bags of stuff and I (it’s not as bad as it sounds, I bought pillows and temperpedic bed mats – anyone in Chicago for HSCT when I get out is welcome to them and the other bunch of stuff I’m leaving) will be admitted into Prentice Woman’s Hospital in Chicago.   That day I will get. Chemo, rATG (an auto-immune suppressant ) , Mesna, Lasix (to flush the chemo out of my bladder as fast as it can and prevent serious bladder damage)  IV steroids  (to make me shed tears like a crazy person) and a bunch of other meds to keep the bad side effects at bay.  I also get a return visit from Pee Wee the cathater and the “let it be”anal swab. It is what it is = IIWII (new acronym for you)

Thurs = Day -4: Repeat of meds from Day -5

Friday = Day -3  Repeat of meds

Saturday = Day -2  Repeat of meds (Last day of chemo)

Easter Sunday = Day -1 Repeat of meds minus chemo and God willing Pee Wee goes home.

Monday, TRANSPLANT DAY aka DAY 0 = now, remember, these are my stem cells so I won’t have the scare of engraftment issues like we feared with Jen’s AML transplant (none thank God).  I do risks side effects from what they use to treat my cells, so I will be monitored closely.  

A dear family friend Joe will be working with the priest who has been in my life for every enormous event that has  ever occurred.  He buried, christened and married loved ones, memorialized my Jason and Dan (years later blessing their burial when we received remains), he christened my daughter.  My Aunt Rosanne asked Joe to coordinate with Father Bill to FaceTime me and bless me and my cells over facetIme. It just wouldn’t seem right to me to have it any other way.

Days +1 and on: From this point on,  it is all about the numbers and counts.   Since the chemo had destroyed my immune system, we have to wait for it to grow back enough for me to safely leave the hospital and GO HOME.  They predict this will be somewhere around Day +12.   Now, if anyone has a private jet they can send my way, that would be great. Lol

                       Now, Here is the edited patient handbook version

TREATMENT REGIMEN

The teatment regimen has been specifically designed to treat my disease.  It will consist of high dose chemotherapy and other immunosuppressive medication to suppress my immune system. In autoimmune diseases such as MS,  chemotherapy is used to kill the immun cells that are causing the disease and may be damaging vital organs such as the lungs, brain, kidney, etc.  In both instances, these treatments will also kill normal cells that grow rapidly such as hair follicles, cells in the gastrointestinal tract (mouth and rectum), and bone marrow. 

 

During chemotherapy, damage to my normal cells may result in side effects.  The severity and type of side effects vary from person to person.  Major side effects include nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, hair loss, and suppression of bone marrow function.  Nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea can be controlled with medications.  Hair loss cannot be prevented, but hair will re-grow in six months after the end of treatment. Bone marrow suppression is usually the most serious side effect of the treatment plan.

 

The bone marrow is responsible for making red blood cells (RBCs), white blood cells (WBCs), and platelets.  After treatment, my blood counts will be low while I am waiting for my new bone marrow to “engraft” or begin producing new blood cells.  Until this occurs, I will receive blood transfusions.   The point of. This is to basically replace my  existing immune system with a new one that has no training to attack my own body.  


Will this cure my MS? No, it, God willing, will stop the disease progression without the need of other disease modifying drugs. That is what my hopes are for.


A fellow HSCTer generously allowed some of us to use their analogy.  It’s my favorite. (Not giving credit because I wasn’t sure you wanted to be called out)


Common question: Will HSCT make me feel like someone who has never had MS?  

Answer: No.
MS is the equivalent of a hundred drunken teenagers throwing a party in your home while you are away. HSCT will clear the teenagers out, have them locked up so they can never come back, and possibly even clean up a lot of the vomit and trash. It WONT repair significant or structural damage like the broken chairs, the smashed windows, or the holes in the wall.  

That, unfortunately, is a permanent remnant of the party (at least until we have re-myelination treatments like MSCs – or better -available after HSCT).

Last thing:  So many of you have asked me if I will have restrictions in the hospital.   OH YES!

1. Fresh flowers or plants are not allowed in your room because of the bacteria and mold they contain.  Silk flowers and silk plants are allowed as long as they do not have moss at the bottom.

1. Balloons are not allowed as they attract dust.

2. Fresh fruits or vegetables are not allowed in my diet because of the bacteria and mold they may contain.  Pepper is also not allowed.  Cooked food from home is allowed as long as it is stored properly.

3. Staff and visitors must thoroughly wash their hands before touching me.  Handwashing is known to be the most effective means of preventing the spread of germs.  Staff must also put on gloves before touching me or anything used in my care (e.g. IV poles, blankets, etc.).

4. Visitors must wear masks if they have been exposed to colds.  No one with a cold or temperature should come to the hospital, because I will be more susceptible to infection, even a mild case of the flu in a visitor could make me very ill.

5. You must wear a mask and gloves if you leave your room. 

6. Hospital visiting hours are from 11:00 AM to 8:30 PM seven days a week.  Visitors must check in at the main lobby desk and with the 15th floor secretary 

7. No visitors should use my bathroom.  All visitors are required to use the guest bathrooms located on the unit because of infection control guidelines.   

                          Key points for the first 3-6 months..
  1. Stay away from large crowds. Avoid movies, shopping and restaurants during highly congestion times. 
  2. Avoid any contact with sick individuals, dust, construction sites, yard work, new animals, new plants and food that might be contaminated (salad bars, blue cheese, deli’s etc) 
  3. Enjoy your pets but wash your hands after handing them and avoid cleaning up after them.
  4. Avoid sick children if your situation allows. Of course, many patients are parents. We advise you to wash your hands often and make sure children or members of the family get treated if they are sick.
  5. Limit travel  during the first 3-6 months.  Any international travel to underdeveloped countries requiring immunizations is not encouraged. 
 

 


 

 

 

Last Day with my Mo!

i couldn’t sleep last night and once I finally did,  I slept until 11:00.  Rosie had a hot date with her Grandpa to go to the Sears Tower or whatever it’s called now.  She Loved it!!

 

   

   

 She had a blast.

Nona,  Grandma and I went to Walgreens to get my  prescriptions refilled.  They have to call San Antonio to have them transferred.  I’m down to one ambien and the no sleep I’ve experienced the last few nights show I need it.  I hope they don’t forget me.  We went back to Soupbox for a light lunch and this time I remembered to take a picture… But only of the grilled cheese.  

 

We then exchanged a skirt Fran bought Rosie at AG and you know what is pathetic…. Getting recognized by most of the employees there.  So sad!!!  Lol. Unfortunetly… I have to go back.  We finally convinced her the hat below is fashionable (thanks Melissa),  but in my haste to grab it I got a doll hat.  

 

  

After AG,  we went up to the 7th floor to get someone new shoes.  Apparently,  her Clarks had a slit in her shoe.  Again,  I have too much respect to say who would be tacky enough to have a slit in their shoe and not know it…

 Edit

 

I got out of there with a $20.00 bill.  To me,  this is a fantastic win!  Lol. We then went to walgreens and picked up my ambien, thank you Itty Bity Baby Jesus in the Manger (IBBJITM as Cecilia, Randa and I say).  And went  back to the room. 

I made geriatric  reservations for 4:30 at Flemmings.  So here are my flemmings pictures for you.  Not all of them are food. 

   

     

I forgot main course,  but delish!!!  

  

Chocolate lava cake we already destroyed.

Well,  we are off to the hotel to pack up Fran and Rosie.  This is the week!  I’ll keep everyone posted!

Xoxo

Colleen

PS – we lost a dear cousin George S. this week after a long and courageous fight with pancreatic cancer.  Prayers for him and his family would be appreciated.  We are sad that we couldn’t be in NJ to send him off.  Much love!  

 

Field Museum

We had a fun day at the Museum today.  Rosie enjoyed it more then I imagined she would.

 

Grandpa met Sue and Rosie wanted to know when they all came alive at night.  Thank you Night at the Museum franchise!  I made it through most of the animal exhibit and part of Egypt before my dad had to go get a wheelchair for me.  I could barely stand.   So between the headscarf, wheelchair and face mask for the crowded places…  I was looking HOT!    

I can’t lie,  Rosie was digging the wheelchair and loved helping me find the bathroom.  

  

Grandpa hates flamingo lawn ornaments, so naturally we made him pose.  Rosie’s favorite exhibit came about 1 hour in..

 

Her grandmothers wanted in on the candy action, but she said… There are only 3!  After a glare from me, she parted ways with a half of 1 peanut butter cup for them to share.

 

  

  She did not like the bug land… That was for boys. 

She was also very impressed that both her feet fit into one of the Dino’s.  I had recently read (ok, listened on audio) the book Remarkable Creatures     by Tracy Chevaliar (The Girl with the Pearl Earring) and really wanted to see an Ichthyosaur or a Plesiosauria fossil, but I didn’t see one.   One day,I will make it to England and see some of Mary Annings fossil finds, but let’s get though the transplant first.  

After a very disappointing Vikings exhibit (which we made a mad dash from because the room was so crowded and every sniffle made me have a panic attack), we headed back to the hotel and I promptly took a 2 hour nap.  Thankfully, I woke up in time for the Kids Choice Awards because that is all I’ve been hearing about for a week.  I mean, if I missed it, I would have had to wait at least 30 seconds for one of the other 900x they will air it on Nickelodeon.


One more day with my baby.  Then she is off home and then NY with Nona.  We will have to make a stop at the Sprinkles ATM!

Xoxo

Colleen


PS, if your going to have a Vikings exhibit,  THIS  is the Vikings I want to see.   That Lagertha is bad A$$!


Finally 

Hi everyone!

I feel whole again. I have my Rosie with me. 

  

Today was such a busy day. What little hair that I had left was falling out like crazy.  The mother of my dear friend Dolly had the most amazing idea of using a lint roller to get them off… Unfortunately, I didn’t have one.  I did have duct tape and duct taped my head for quite some time (Joe NcN will be so proud).  I know it sounds crazy, but the cells are dead.  It didn’t hurt at all.  Finally I caved and took a razor to it.  My dad walked in the room with horror on his face and took the job over.  So I am officially very bald. Sorry, not brave enough to post yet.  I have to get used to it first,  soon I promise.

 We left the room at about noon to head to the Soupbox for lunch.  This is going to shock all of you,  but I completely forgot to take pictures.  It did live up to it’s name as the best soup in Chicago.  I swear there is nothing better then a bread bowl of soup when it’s like -5000 degrees outside.  We then ran across the street to grab a new razor for my dad… lol.  At about 2:30, my mom and I caught a cab to the airport to meet Rosie and Fran.  They were so nice there, they gave us escort passes to meet them at the gate.  Of course… I did have a head scarf and medical mask on. One TSA agent asked me if I was sick….  No, no… This is my Friday look. Lol when they got off the plane,  Rosie ran up to me and pulled my head scarf off to rub my head.   It was all caught on video, unfortunately my mother was taking the video and well,   It was mostly of shoes and her finger.  Nice try mom.

We hopped into the car service to get back to the hotel.  We had an hour until Rosie’s appointment at American Girl to have her dolls hair done.  It was like a mad dash to the room, change and to get to the store.  But we did it.

   

After the dolls spa date (I can’t believe I even typed that) we had dinner there.  This time even grandpa came. Doesn’t he look delighted…

   

Rosie had a blast shopping with her gift cards and refused to buy this hat… I’m in love with it. 

 

 

It’s not… And I quote here… It’s not fashionable enough for her!  Monster 

After shopping and we ran up to Garretts for some popcorn 

 

 And finally back to the hotel for an Easter egg hunt in  room.  Today was EXHAUSTING, but worth every second.  So glad to have Rosie and Nona back.  Now, I must sleep.

Xoxo

Colleen

A Little TBT as I Wait for my Rosemary to get here

For those new friends that have never seen it… My adoption video.  That was this last time I started a new life.  It seems fitting as I am about to restart my life again… This time with my Rose beside me.

Thanks to Fran and Yvette for being my camera women, phone holders, and rocks on this miraculous journey…

At the time this video was taken, my mother was less then 1 month into recovery of her esophageal cancer surgery.  My dad was in NY with her and they  listened on the phone.